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I feel like screaming, crying, laughing and just about everything else.
Internet relationships are a tough subject.
I want to be able to say "Don't try them, they don't work"
But that would be me talking shit.
I've never been more confused in my life.
You love someone
You hate them
You feel like they hate you
You want to kiss them
You want to hit them
You want to have never known them
You want them to be right beside you.



I need to bubble wrap my heart so it will pop every time someone comes near it and I know to stay away.

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How do you dot your i's?
With ickle V's

Do you get the trick in the song If You Seek Amy by Britney Spears?
Indeed. Rawr.

Who was the last person you sat with at a resturaunt?
Mommy, daddy and a stranger.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Reading some Coleridge.

What happened at 10:00 AM?
Maths, thats what happened.

Last time you saw your blood dad?
That time he hit me with an orange.

Say your last ex runs up to you and hugs you, what do you do?
Knee him in the balls.

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
It.

Have you ever taken someone back after they hurt you?
Yes.

Are you happy with your life at the moment?
Mehishyesnomaybeso.

Are you jealous of your siblings?
Of that facial hair? Yes.....^_^

Have you kissed anyone this past week?
No. I have a boring life.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Mother.

Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
Nope.

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
Indeed.

Do you crack your knuckles?
My wrist baby.

How much money did you spend today?
4.75.

What will you be doing tomorrow?
Exams.

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Yes.

What is the first thing you did this morning?
Thought of him.

Do you miss someone?
Yes.

Do you sometimes watch the news?
Indeed I do.

Are you currently feeling the need to tell someone something?
Yesyesyes.

What color was the last pill you took?
Blue.

Do you like hugs?
Yesh.

Are you a loud person?
RAWWWWWWWR...no.

Are you cold, warm or just right at the moment?
Hot.

Are you mad/frustrated at anyone right now?
I am.

Why did you last cry?
Over...someone.


Do you get distracted easily?
BUTTERFLY.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I hope not.

If you can't sleep at night, what thought is keeping you awake?
My thinking.

Is there something you wanna let go of?
Yes.

Your current relationship status?
There's this guy...and I kind of love him.

How many cats do you have?
567. I've only just began my collection.

Are you thinking of someone right now?
When am I not?

Are you currently frustrated with a boy or girl?
Yes.

Do long distance relationships work?
I really hope so.

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
I don't know...

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
Cold.

<3

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I Was on Skype and feeling pretty shit.
So, I Rang Sam and talked for a bit.
(Rhyme not intended.)
I can talk to him about shit like this pretty easily because he listens to all the crap I have to say.
He made me realise something.
I'm currently kicking myself because he has told me so many times.
I never listened.
I didn't want to.
But I'm glad I know now.
I didn't want it to be true before but now,
not so much.

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The sky in that picture makes me smile.
But you know what doesn't make me smile?
This.

AcB
AeB
AtB

Don't get it?Tough.


I can't study.
Make me smart.


I want to change things.
I can't.
This makes me sad.


Time goes fast right?
A bit too fast?
Agreed.


I need someone to sit
and talk
with me.

Do you ever find yourself just wanting to cry?
For the smallest reason you just start up and feel warm tears creeping down your face.
Pav said something today and I agree.I hate it when people speak indirectly about people like,I miss them so much and I want to be with them.
But,the fact of the matter is,we all do it.
Its not easy to just say who you like or love.It should be easy but Its not.
I love someone and they know it and a lot of people do too but I still don't want to say it here,Why?
I don't know.
I should want to because its not a load of crap I'm not sure about.
I think that no matter how well things are going with someone,you don't want to make it too clear in the fear that maybe they don't the feel the same way and that,what ever way you look at it,is rather heartbreaking.

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See those people over there?
I love them.
This weekend was lovely.
On Sunday I stayed at Laura's with Sean And Ste.
I didn't sleep much because of Skype till seven and then Stephen took up most of the couch so I didn't sleep much then either.It was amazing though,we talked to Matt,Hatti,Dan and James and some other lovely people.We Blog tv-ed and just had some epic times.
Tesco is a sex cat.
TIME MACHINE.
Michael got up early and Me and Stephen and Sean decided when people start getting up,Its time for us to say goodnight,even if the cat was going spazz.

Right now I've never been more confused about something that should be as simple as pie.
People talk.
The hardest thing was I had to pretend all weekend to keep someone happy.
I told the other person in the car yesterday.
I wanted to.
They didn't want to hear it but they had to know.I love them because they understand.
I mean I can't help the way I feel.
But even if I could,I wouldn't.

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I'm going to keep this short because I can't really use names and say exactly what I'm talking about.
Its not really that I can't,it's that I don't want to.
This week I've noticed something and I'm not sure is it a good or bad thing.
I mean its good in one way and bad in another.
Not to confuse things even more but....the good thing should be the bad thing in a way because Its not something that can achieve anything if I'm being any way realistic.I mean it would be amazing.Beyond amazing.But I don't have that sort of optimistic to be honest.